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homralings2015-10-13 02:21 pm
redstray) wrote in homralings2015-10-13 02:21 pm
After the Memory (Eric + Kusanagi)
[ Eric stared into space, barely focusing on the bar's counter as he heard a clock ticking somewhere.
Just two days after Mikoto's passing...or was it three? Eric couldn't tell sonce he hasn't really slept since then. Which was ine of the reasons why he volunteered tonight to watch over Anna and the bar. Fujishima offered to stay as well but after Eric snapped at him for babying him, he managed to be alone. He felt bad for that and would apologize the next time he saw the other but his mind was just in a fog.
He closed his eyes to doze but sprang them back open as flashes of what happened thay day came back. The uneasiness of watching himself do something he had no control over made his skin crawl. As well as the other patches of memories he was sure weren't from his own head. But he kept quiet. He didn't think anyone saw him being taken control of by the Colourless King and with everything that happen, he didn't want to worry anyone for it.
He vaguely heard the clock chime to 4am and sighed. Just a little longer and he would be through. ]
Just two days after Mikoto's passing...or was it three? Eric couldn't tell sonce he hasn't really slept since then. Which was ine of the reasons why he volunteered tonight to watch over Anna and the bar. Fujishima offered to stay as well but after Eric snapped at him for babying him, he managed to be alone. He felt bad for that and would apologize the next time he saw the other but his mind was just in a fog.
He closed his eyes to doze but sprang them back open as flashes of what happened thay day came back. The uneasiness of watching himself do something he had no control over made his skin crawl. As well as the other patches of memories he was sure weren't from his own head. But he kept quiet. He didn't think anyone saw him being taken control of by the Colourless King and with everything that happen, he didn't want to worry anyone for it.
He vaguely heard the clock chime to 4am and sighed. Just a little longer and he would be through. ]
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In the end, that's what Homra really is — family.]
Just take your time with this. Ya still have time ta adjust — don't think too hard about it.
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Before...I never thought I would find anyone to help me. [ He chuckles a bit, albeit sadly ] Who would save someone a dog? I remember thinking... it was okay to die like this. It was fine.
[ He puts the plate back on the table, the little appetite he had had was gone for now. ]
Then you all began to teach me to be human again. And it hurt, it still does. Life...would be easier if I was a dog again...sometimes I still think that.
[ A little bit more then a year and a half of happiness against 7 years of orders and punishment. It was hard to topple them. ]
To have someone...have you say you want to help...being a...guardian for me. It's a lot, to take in, and I don't think I'll ever be ready to adjust. But, I'm happy at the same time, that I can be a part of it. Besides just Homra, just a little bit more...means a lot.
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It's the first time Eric's ever opened up like this, so he's not going to interrupt, a slight frown as he hears the word 'dog'.
But when the younger man stops talking, Izumo says nothing for a moment. He gazes at Eric, appearing thoughtful, before he looks away.]
Even if ya think you'll never be ready, 's okay. Ta us, you're not a dog - you're part o'us now. The hardships ya had ta endure before, it'll never go away, but with us - hopefully the good memories will replace the bad over time.
Ya don't have ta think o'us any differently; we're still gonna be there for ya. For us, you're someone special, too.
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You're still Homra. You will always be Homra. And Homra...is home. And I know I'm a part of it, and to be a part of it even more, would make me happy. Even though it's hard to think I'm worthy of it, even still...
[ He grows silent. It was hard to try and express what he wanted to. But he wanted to get the message to Kusanagi. ]
I want to be part of it, to try...and be Anna's...I want to try.
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Sometimes, trying is just enough. [He would know. It took him a bit to get used to being surrounded by so many people, too. In the beginning, it's always just been him, Mikoto, and Totsuka.
So now, it's his job to keep this small family together.] 'm sure Anna would be happy ta hear that, too.
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Yeah...
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It's refreshing to have heard Eric talk so much, knowing how difficult it must've been for him.] If you're tired, get some more rest. Won't be long before the others get here now.
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He lightly leans on Kusanagi, putting his shoulder on the other. Even if it wouldn't be to long before the others got here, he didn't want Kusanagi to move away, he needed some rest too. ]
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Even if he won't let himself sleep, it's just nice to be able to sit and relax for a bit. He's had a tiring morning after all, so the brief break was nice.
Izumo just continues to lean back against the couch, enjoying the silence.
Though, true to his word, the others soon enter the bar, being loud and rowdy as usual even in the mornings.]
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Even when Anna came down, she's smiling as she ate breakfast with everyone. Some time passes until the others leave, Kamamoto and Yata taking Anna with them to the arcade after they helped clean up.
Izumo starts to clean up once they're gone, putting the clean dishes away.]
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He eats a bit more of his plate...but he can't fully finish it. He listens to everyone else, glad that they can smile and laugh a little while after everything that had happen. it might not last but they're happy right now.
As breakfast is eaten and people start to distract themselves in another way they started leaving Fujishima and Chitose offered to take him somewhere but he shook his head, not giving an excuse to why. He heard them say take care as they shut the door. Eric bundled himself back into the banket, knees up and head down ]
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He notices Eric still on the couch, so he walks over to him.] D'ya wanna come grocery shopping with me or stay here?
[Because Izumo's gotten a good look in the fridge and the pantry, and realized they're still short on everything. Besides, he's not going to let Eric simply sit in that position where it suggests something is wrong.]
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[ He looks away, fidgeting with his sleeves as he tries to figure out if he wants to go or not.
But if Kusanagi wanted him to go then he should, right? So he nods, getting up from the couch to follow him ]
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Anna will be okay...by herself?
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[He's also made sure to leave Anna a phone to call him in case of emergencies, but he doesn't outright say it out loud.]
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[ She was quiet and wore a mask more then he did. Maybe that's why he was able to tell, not that everyone wasn't suffering either, but the girl seemed to be trying to hide it and worry about others. ]
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[Izumo knows the mask Anna wears, can see through it now more often than he'd like to. But he knows that while he can be a support pillar, there are others who can do so much better than he could.]
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[ He at least enjoyed her company and he hoped she felt the same. ]
She'll be okay...we all will...
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[He takes out a cigarette and a lighter, breathing in deeply.]
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Christmas is coming up, isn't it?
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Couple of days...why?
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