toremainbehind: ([14] And there is stillness everywhere)
Kusanagi Izumo ([personal profile] toremainbehind) wrote in [community profile] homralings2015-10-13 04:59 pm

My heart is a ghost town

[The bar's been closed on a day it shouldn't be closed, but it couldn't be helped.

Izumo has chosen to take the day off, shooing everyone out of the bar, except for Mikoto and Anna since they live there. Right now, he didn't want to be near HOMRA, being reminded only of memories of Totsuka. Little tokens from Totsuka's hobbies all over the bar, placed neatly in places that can be seen but not in the way, rarely touched now.

Much like the films Totsuka had recorded during his time alive.

It's how he eventually finds himself in his apartment, perched on his couch with a shot glass of Vodka in hand and one of Totsuka's films playing. He's not quite paying attention to it, focused on the sounds rather than the images playing. Every time he hears Totsuka's voice on film, he takes a shot, his throat burning from the alcohol but it was a burn he welcomes all the same.]
preciousmemories: (I guess you're right.)

[personal profile] preciousmemories 2015-10-13 10:46 pm (UTC)(link)
[Well, that's one good thing at least. Izumo can't drink even more and make himself sick if the bottle is empty.]

What happened to "come to me if you have any problems"? [He hasn't been dead for very long at all...What happened to the side of him that Tatara saw? It was there when he was around the others, but this...He was never like this, to Tatara's knowledge.]

This feels like something King would do, not you.
preciousmemories: (Another nightmare?)

[personal profile] preciousmemories 2015-10-13 11:02 pm (UTC)(link)
I refuse! [Izumo's not looking at him, but he could make it so he has no choice! Probably, anyway...he doesn't really want to try touching him, in case he just phases through.]

I had to leave you on the roof that night, but I won't do it again. Not unless I have to. [He pauses for a moment and sighs, shifting his arms.]

Besides, aren't ghosts only here if someone wants to see them?
preciousmemories: (I guess you're right.)

[personal profile] preciousmemories 2015-10-13 11:22 pm (UTC)(link)
Ah, that's true. But isn't it because I'm gone that you're watching the videos?

[Good, let that dam break, let Izumo let his emotions out. It's the most he can do for his dear friend now that he's dead.

Let it all out, and let Tatara help. He hates sitting here watching without being able to do anything for him. Even if Izumo thinks he's imaginary, he might still be able to help, if Izumo would only let him.
]
preciousmemories: (No sense of self preservation)

[personal profile] preciousmemories 2015-10-13 11:45 pm (UTC)(link)
[Tatara exhales loudly, pressing his head against his arms.]

It's not like any of us thought that would happen. I didn't think the person on the roof that night was a King and that he'd shoot me. Did you?

[He wonders how Izumo would react if he'd told him about the warning he'd gotten from Anna before they got her out of the facility. Maybe he'll tell him later, after Izumo gets this mess sorted out and (maybe) realizes he's not talking to his imagination.]
preciousmemories: (Not used to being filmed.)

[personal profile] preciousmemories 2015-10-13 11:59 pm (UTC)(link)
That's... [Now it doesn't matter what he thought. He's dead, and this is the first time anyone's heard him speak. Izumo's reaction is enough to say that they wouldn't handle it well at all.

He moves again, kneeling in front of him and just barely not touching his hand.
]

I wanted you to follow my song, stay how you were even as you missed me. I thought that Kamamoto or Yata might've been able to take over my role like we'd talked about when Fushimi was still with us but...I guess that was hoping for too much.

I'm sorry, Kusanagi-san.
preciousmemories: (It'll all work out.)

[personal profile] preciousmemories 2015-10-14 12:37 am (UTC)(link)
If you'd act like this if I was, I wouldn't want to be brought back. [That was...probably more harsh than he needed to be, but maybe it'd get Izumo to...stop being so sad and angry at himself.

He wants to still be with them, for them not to be hurt because of him. Of course he does. But...
]

...I know. It was the only hope I had though. I didn't want to leave you to fall apart by yourselves, but I guess we were a little kingdom. [It makes sense they crumbled when one fell away, no matter how much he wants them to be whole still.]
preciousmemories: (That hurt)

[personal profile] preciousmemories 2015-10-14 01:26 am (UTC)(link)
[Maybe he does have no right to say that, but Izumo certainly doesn't have a right to act like this.] Stop that. [Don't say that, please. Dying himself was bad enough. He doesn't want to imagine a world where Izumo had died instead. If this is what greets him for watching over his family...He winces and frowns in return.]

Do you really think King and I would've handled it any better than you and King are now if you were gone? We'd be in trouble no matter which of us died. It was always the three of us, since the start of all of this.

[It should have remained the three of them always, but even if he hadn't died when he did, they both know Mikoto hadn't had long left anyway. It was just worse now.]
preciousmemories: (Another nightmare?)

[personal profile] preciousmemories 2015-10-14 01:51 am (UTC)(link)
[He wants to say it but remembers his last words and stops himself. Besides, Izumo and the others won't be fine for a while, what with him dying and King getting ready to follow. What else can he do besides apologize though?]

I'm sorry. You know we never intended for this to happen.

[But he doesn't think he'd change anything if he could. If Mikoto hadn't become the Red King, they wouldn't have been able to rescue Anna. They've helped people because of this mess. He doesn't want to think about what would've happened to all their clansmen if they hadn't joined Homra.]

You can't leave Anna all alone again, you know that, right?

[He's sorry, but you've got to stay behind for all the people they've picked up, Izumo.]
preciousmemories: (I guess you're right.)

[personal profile] preciousmemories 2015-10-14 02:12 am (UTC)(link)
Good. [Tatara's shoulders sag at the release of the tension from being uncertain. Izumo's always been the realistic one of the three of them, but it never hurts to make sure.

He pauses for a moment, watching Izumo's face.
]

Promise not to drink too much? I'm no longer here to help out around the bar when you're sick or busy.
preciousmemories: (Not used to being filmed.)

[personal profile] preciousmemories 2015-10-14 02:22 am (UTC)(link)
[He really didn't expect anything else, but it didn't hurt to ask. Maybe he'd be able to be seen by Izumo again sometime.

After a moment, Tatara nods.
]

It's me. I don't know why you can see me now when you couldn't earlier, but...I'm here.

[And then he makes a face, pressing one of his hands next to one of Izumo's legs.]

Why did King think it was a good idea to wear my earring with my blood in it? It's kind of creepy.
preciousmemories: (Hm?)

[personal profile] preciousmemories 2015-10-14 02:31 am (UTC)(link)
[Oh. He missed that part.]

It's still creepy. [!!! He got Izumo to laugh!

There's a tiny smile on his face, even as he groans.
]

That's what the videos are for! Not for playing a drinking game every time I speak-- that was mean, Kusanagi-san! That feels like you're trying to forget.

[He's not sure Mikoto would be okay with Tatara haunting him instead of Izumo or the bar honestly. Would the earring react? Maybe he'll test that next time Izumo's at the bar.]
preciousmemories: (Scolded)

[personal profile] preciousmemories 2015-10-14 02:47 am (UTC)(link)
That's true, King can be.... [Tatara shakes his head slightly, sighing. This is why they didn't let King make Anna's breakfast those first months.]

That makes it a bad game! The point isn't to get alcohol poisoning!

[He'll just. not comment on being unforgettable right now. He's dead--he shouldn't get embarrassed by things like that.

Tatara taps his chin.
]

Well, I followed you from the bar. No one else seems to see or hear me though, like you couldn't.
preciousmemories: (Hm?)

[personal profile] preciousmemories 2015-10-14 03:07 am (UTC)(link)
I'd like you to keep it that way too.

[That would be the worst situation--they're all drunk and then they all die way too early because Anna's the only one to take care of them.

He shakes his head to the question.
]

If she can see me, she doesn't show it. Maybe she's just too focused on using her power to find the Colorless King, like the rest of you are.

[Or maybe the trauma has closed her off a little bit this time, instead of opening her mind up even more.]

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